Found this quote on my blog from over a year ago. It makes me happy and sad.
I’m so very happy that I now have loved ones in my life that support me and encourage me to be myself and get better. I’m happy I’m trying to love myself again. I’m happy that I’m still awake, but I’m thinking of the good things instead of the bad like other times. I’m happy that I can hear two of my favorite people snoring right now, because it’s quite funny. I’m happy that I really do feel like I’m getting better again.
I’m sad because everything was and is so good but I still felt bad. I’m sad because I didn’t get help, or help myself sooner. I’m sad because now I have a long way to go and I wasted time I can never get back. I’m sad that I’ve worried so much about things I can’t control. I’m sad because it is a cycle, and it will always be a cycle.
But I don’t feel sad anymore. I think I’ve almost figured it out now. You are going to have bad times.. and when you’re ready, you know how to get better and you do it all over again. It’s just a cycle. And I’d rather spend more time at the top. It’s nice.
u ever have that friend where ur like. yes lets get an apartment together. lets adopt 200 cats. lets DO IT